Just everything...

Well you can tell I have my iPad!
There's still stuff I wished it could do that it can't
But overall pretty awesome still seeing how this blogger app works

I won't promise to update this every day but I should be a little more consistent.

Choir Tour and youth show are coming up like so soon.
So have been busy with that

Tomm at our work is memorial day cookout.
It took waaay to longnto make the cucumber Salad
-I 'm so tired...

I also wanted to say how good SAMs talk in seek was...
I may not have looked like I was paying Attention but I was
And while very different our stories are also very similar





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Dinner is served!

got stuff to make dinner / lunches the other day on the cheap...
finally got around to making it and am pretty happy with how it turned out. started out with just boiling some rotini noodles...a whole box is just a buck. sauteed up some mushrooms...i would have rather had fresh, but I already had can in the pantry. and added some cut-up kielbasi (in the sasage family) I'm really happy with the way the spices in this turned out, added some A1 sauce, emeril's seasoning, mesquite grilling spice, paprika, and cinammon. while I will admit I went a bit crazy with the spices, it turned out really good, and cinnamon is a unexpected spice in a pasta dish I like it.
I added the skillet to the pasta, added the half a jar of ragu I had, still not enough sauce so I added the half a jar of alfredo too, and whala (sp? haha) I had rosa sauce, mixed in some cheese and done, had dinner plus packed four lunches.
and while it might not seem like much, it tastes good, and a whole lot cheaper than going out for lunch.
Also random note:
really liked Heather's post on the wisdom of the youth, I've always felt like that in sunday school classes...

CT2011 planning

according to our Google Site (for Choir Tour Planning-that weston designed) there are only 102 days left until choir tour.
this may seem like alot of time but really its not, so we're in planning phases right now. there's lots of things between now and then that will occupy alot of time...chief among them: The Masters Plan and Youth Choir Production. but right nowI'm working albiet late.. on developing a plan to train or at least somewhat develop a tech crew, cause that was one of the bigger issues last choir tour, having people who knew tech, to our Youth Choirs Cred. I had plenty of people who wanted to help but there was a limited amount they could do cause I would have to spend more time explaining to them what to do than just doing it.
but its much more fraught with pitfalls, details, drama and other people interaction things the biggest issue I have is peoples motivation and if its for the right reasons, I mean everyone tells me that it is but I cant tell if they're lying..and with the internet and collabration the way it is pretty much all my ideas about it have changed in the past 8hrs.

ok can I just say this Glee eppy Im watching called "Blame it on the Alcohol"
is really wierd and I feel like its glorifying teen drinking but idk I mean they are addressing a valid teenage issue. anyway enough of my add thought process

despite all my worry i'm still uber excited about Choir Tour ...but that reminds me I have to ask off work earlier b/c I have a different job, i think thier a stricter on the whole time off thing...
but i'll figure that....o and just for the record I didnt tell a soul about where we were going but somewho kids still knew, but now everyone knows so ...Boston and side trip to New York... I've actually never been to either one, always wanted to go to new york but nvr got there. so dont really have any expectation of where we are going.
Out for new.

sunday encouragement

well, just so i dont leave the blog sitting for too long with my last 2 posts...sorry about that i just needed to vent, and no nothing has really changed but enough about that.
sunday I went to the new youth leader bible study or whatev they want to call it, and can i just say thats the first time in a long time that I haven't felt alone with my views and problems. i realized that other people go through the same struggles and issues. and no all of the worlds problems weren't fixed in an hour but it was really helpful just to realize your not alone.

i saw a movie called 'you again' on dvd, its one of those movies that i'm sure got horrible reviews but i loved it. a comedy/love story about forgiving the past, it was laugh out loud funny to me at least.

i really miss going to el chaps on a wed night and just hanging out with everybody, but last I heard they had changed names or closed and non of the kids go there anymore, its a little more clickish now like this group of kids is going here, and this other group is going there. not....you going to el chaps...heck yea. I miss that #justsayin

more fustration

so frustrated right now. i am having such a hard time.
i feel so unchristian right now i really am struggling with my
christian walk and ironically its someone at church
that im having a hard time with. i need to reconnect but feel so
far away...no one said it would be easy.
I know that how i feel isnt right and i dont want it to eat at
me like it is. one of the kids was like you look sad.I was like really?
i dont want to become this person that is bitter and hates people
but its like everytime I think we're working it out they do something
that drives me to feel that way even more. do i have the right attitude? NO
i readily admit that. do i still have good intentions and motive? i think so but i feel like i moving farther away from God when i feel like this. and i dont want that.
God please help me to let this go and not want to be so controlling of the outcome of the situation, it not like you don't know what your doing. -thanks

in unrelated news it was a beautiful day out today.
like maybe the overcommecialized groundhog was right for a change.

i want to talk about but i cant...

i've been dealing with some stuff lately some of it my fault some of it thiers. the hard part of it is trying to have a good, right attitude....like a Christian one.....Yea about that totally failing right now. we eventually talked and made peace...to some degree anyway. not gonna lie still kinda mad about it but now im starting to swing the opposite way on the pendulum...as in not caring at all.
its not great...really. I think the worst part is I feel the most unchristian at church. i dunno, maybe part of it is that burnout, or my walk but i jst want things to go back to the way they were before.... im literary counting the days.
anyway...then after i think maybe we're on our way past it..something else
happens that hurts just as much...being replaced.
the incidents in and of themselves are not as hurtful as thinking of them.

anywho if you made it through reading that, thanks.
I realize it made no sense but it feels good expressing some of this.

general foolishness and the black swan

so after seek the kids were jumping chairs in the hallway.
I used to do track and long jump back in the day, so this looked
like fun, but I was kinda worried i wouldn't be able to clear them
so I waited till everyone was gone....and i could!

5 chairs


6 chairs #failblog


...yea about that. my ankle still hurts.
but it was fun.

So tonight I fianlly went and saw black swan...


I was somehow under the impression that it was going to be like wicker park...but not really. i was on the edge of my seat the whole time.
the ending killed me though. i couldnt even figure
out what emotion i was feeling..sadness, sympathy, fear. it was overwhelming.
overall a good movie. but too real, i like movies to be an escape from reality.

well its been awhile

well its been awhile no promises about blogging regularly but i'll try
for now a brief thought...

I get really depressed going to stores this time of year..
it makes me realize what i dont have, and I dont mean stuff.
kind of makes me feel like this...


so to distract my mind I watched an action movie and a comedy..
the expendables and an oldie...well not that old: my bosses daughter
its supposed to snow or precipitate tonight but so far havent seen a flake.
atlanta was pretty well shutdown by the same storm yesterday.
anywho its late, gotta get up early...