more fustration

so frustrated right now. i am having such a hard time.
i feel so unchristian right now i really am struggling with my
christian walk and ironically its someone at church
that im having a hard time with. i need to reconnect but feel so
far away...no one said it would be easy.
I know that how i feel isnt right and i dont want it to eat at
me like it is. one of the kids was like you look sad.I was like really?
i dont want to become this person that is bitter and hates people
but its like everytime I think we're working it out they do something
that drives me to feel that way even more. do i have the right attitude? NO
i readily admit that. do i still have good intentions and motive? i think so but i feel like i moving farther away from God when i feel like this. and i dont want that.
God please help me to let this go and not want to be so controlling of the outcome of the situation, it not like you don't know what your doing. -thanks

in unrelated news it was a beautiful day out today.
like maybe the overcommecialized groundhog was right for a change.