well, just so i dont leave the blog sitting for too long with my last 2 posts...sorry about that i just needed to vent, and no nothing has really changed but enough about that.
sunday I went to the new youth leader bible study or whatev they want to call it, and can i just say thats the first time in a long time that I haven't felt alone with my views and problems. i realized that other people go through the same struggles and issues. and no all of the worlds problems weren't fixed in an hour but it was really helpful just to realize your not alone.
i saw a movie called 'you again' on dvd, its one of those movies that i'm sure got horrible reviews but i loved it. a comedy/love story about forgiving the past, it was laugh out loud funny to me at least.
i really miss going to el chaps on a wed night and just hanging out with everybody, but last I heard they had changed names or closed and non of the kids go there anymore, its a little more clickish now like this group of kids is going here, and this other group is going there. not....you going to el chaps...heck yea. I miss that #justsayin
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
more fustration
so frustrated right now. i am having such a hard time.
i feel so unchristian right now i really am struggling with my
christian walk and ironically its someone at church
that im having a hard time with. i need to reconnect but feel so
far away...no one said it would be easy.
I know that how i feel isnt right and i dont want it to eat at
me like it is. one of the kids was like you look sad.I was like really?
i dont want to become this person that is bitter and hates people
but its like everytime I think we're working it out they do something
that drives me to feel that way even more. do i have the right attitude? NO
i readily admit that. do i still have good intentions and motive? i think so but i feel like i moving farther away from God when i feel like this. and i dont want that.
God please help me to let this go and not want to be so controlling of the outcome of the situation, it not like you don't know what your doing. -thanks
in unrelated news it was a beautiful day out today.
like maybe the overcommecialized groundhog was right for a change.
i feel so unchristian right now i really am struggling with my
christian walk and ironically its someone at church
that im having a hard time with. i need to reconnect but feel so
far away...no one said it would be easy.
I know that how i feel isnt right and i dont want it to eat at
me like it is. one of the kids was like you look sad.I was like really?
i dont want to become this person that is bitter and hates people
but its like everytime I think we're working it out they do something
that drives me to feel that way even more. do i have the right attitude? NO
i readily admit that. do i still have good intentions and motive? i think so but i feel like i moving farther away from God when i feel like this. and i dont want that.
God please help me to let this go and not want to be so controlling of the outcome of the situation, it not like you don't know what your doing. -thanks
in unrelated news it was a beautiful day out today.
like maybe the overcommecialized groundhog was right for a change.
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